Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Never let them tell you

Friday, March 15, 2013

I'm sticking

There is a lot to talk about.
A lot.
As I mentioned, we’re staying in the house, part of the process for refinancing is getting an appraisal and we had that done this week.
I’ve had many of these done before, and never by a female.
Not only was mine a Gal, she was a Tea bagger.
How I came to find that out , after her initial explanation of how there are good Nazis and bad Nazis, just like there are good Jews and Bad Jews, was when she started to discuss the 70% of single mothers on welfare.
The moment after that came out of her mouth, I realized I was not at work, and didn’t need to even listen to her bullshit before I could tell her it was not an appropriate conversation.
I said, “ Tony, let me stop you there.” While holding my hand up to reinforce the point.
You are not here to have this conversation with me, you are here for one purpose, and that’s to appraise the house.
I ushered her out and waved at her as she drove away, with an extremely satisfying ( for me at least), look of confusion on her face.
Who am I?

Saturday, March 09, 2013

A hole

This morning I mailed three bills without stamps. Hi fifty.
I started watching Enlightened last night. The program is about someone who has experienced coming to the cliff, falling off, getting some help, and then ending up back into the same environment, only to realize, she jumped, others pushed her, and that the reality outside of ourselves will remain, no matter how much we change.
It’s brilliant, every bit of it. The acting, the story telling, the knowledge, that what brings a person to the brink is them, though  the world is sometimes happy to help move things along.
I so wanted to linger on some of the things the characters say, Luke Wilson, who can only tolerate life with substances, so keenly aware of the balance and what would happen to him without them.
And Laura Dern, she is just amazing, nothing less. Behold some answers, it’s a tremendous relief.

Monday, March 04, 2013

What I try not to be

Eamon and I decided not to sell our house yet, to refinance and then think about what we actually want to do.
I asked him if he had ever had a picture of the future when he was young, and he replied, just writing.
Mine was never clear, I know at one point in my childhood there was the image of me getting to drive by myself to McDonalds for two big Macs.
There, that’s the extent of our hopes. Pen to paper and twoallbeefpattiesspecialsaucelettucecheesepicklesonionsonasesameseedbun.