I've been here

Control is everything.  Even with kindness, which is a mechanism of it, when we think that we are helping or giving guidance or advice, it’s a form of control and that, puts me in a very limited place in that everything about me, from my need to help, my watchfulness, assistance, advice, sharing, directing, bossing, and ultimately controlling everything I possibly can, boils down to pretty much nothing.
I’ve been going to yoga classes, and every once in a while I go away.  The peace there, the utter, quiet of not trying to figure something out is brief, and intangible.
I want to stop looking, seeing, thinking, figuring out, and to expand that  moment into maybe two or three.