Head hang low

I'm going to be 44 next week. And I'm trying to figure out how exactly that happened. I've lost approximately 13 years. I can remember Jake being born and then after that Gus but then it's all a blur of sorts. I'm not kidding. I have no idea what happened from 30 until a maybe last year.
If their was an alien abduction, I have yet to re-live the memories, but that at least would explain the situation. All I know is that I'm loosing elasticity and retaining water, so much for a reward at the midpoint. It's not the most exciting subject, aging, but for now it's outside the window I've been sitting near.