This is my one lucky prize

Gus it 22 today.  He’s in California, but according to my mom, he is actually visiting them in Bradley Beach New Jersey.  His presence at my parent’s apartment is confusing her ,  it’s not actually him, just another person in the environment that has put her even more off balance.
When I was in Wildwood, on the beach, alone,  Jacob and Gus  fighting in the motel room, I looked around at the families sitting together, some laughing, some fighting, but, they were together, being in one place .
There’s not a lot of that going on in my world right now.  In my very loose plans for a family, I had hoped for a more cohesive group, it’s far more fluid then that, practically molten.