We've got a bigger problem now

For some reason, I always try to talk myself out of being excited about something, and I find reasons to be anxious instead. I have to determine that this is inherited, otherwise it's because I've got a split personality and have done some things when I'm the other person that cause me to be hyper vigilant and on top of the many items I would need to keep track of, because my real life is not that complicated.
I'm going to a "closed" state, it's the first time in 38 years that the casinos have been shuttered. Any minute this issue will undoubtedly be resolved, but it's a fascinating experience that the first vacation my family has had in years, is going to be in a non-functioning environment. Perhaps my disquiet is not so unfounded after all.