Tearing it apart

I'm guessing that if you've been playing games, manipulating and passively negatively affecting other people's lives for more than a century than it really doesn't seem like you are doing anything wrong. My mom as she is aging is loosing her grasp on so many things that her need for control has worsened and in fact become unmanageable for her, and the rest of us. I on the other hand want to let go of all my desire to keep things in check, so being on the opposite end of the spectrum makes for an interesting, or dare I say challenging mix of emotion, reaction and introspection.