I know

If I had balls life would have me by them. Since I don't I guess I'll just grieve. For a while there I thought I was doing alright, managing my lot and not letting the overwhelming urge to run for Canada take up a huge portion of my awake thinking time. Not the case anymore. As I've mentioned number 1 is going to be heading west and the most heartbreakingest aspect of this harshness, is he will be gone. There is the myth of living with a family, that everything that is adverse can be overcome, that there will be some resolution or closure. But, not with this one, it just is the worst and leaves me with a hole that echoes.